Dottie’s Testimony

    Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly…but his delight is in the law of the Lord, and in His law he meditates day and night. He shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that brings forth its fruit in its season, whose leaf also shall not wither; and whatever he does shall prosper. Psalm 1:1–3

    I have to say something here! Maybe you will be shocked or maybe you will not , but I have to tell you this (I want to share this with you so you can maybe relate to what I am about to say). When I received Jesus in my life, I started reading the  word and praying. My Father started to talk to me about many things. The one thing that I want to tell you is there was a woman that I had met and God had me pray for her all the time and I was faithful and happy to do so!

   I had met her that the church I was attending. He gave me a message for her and I gave! However, right after I gave her the message I had a mental breakdown. I was in a private Hospital for three and a half months. Why you ask? Because the Pastor did not believe, that God was speaking to me! Even through The Women believed that Father God gave this to her. She had a church in Opa-Locka, FL. The Lord wanted her to change the name of the church to Rose of Sharon Ministries, the Pastor would not believe it! It’s not that I needed him to believe me, but it’s what the Lord gave me to give to her and not only that, I was going to a Pentecostal church. They were teaching on the GIFTS! God does the choosing, and He chooses who he wants to use! I had No leader to turn to or believe the gift  that God had given me! I was so hurt that my Pastor and I fell apart, that I ended up having another attack. The first one from a Pastor, was when I first got married. We moved next to the church, I use to walk to when I was a child. my Grandmother raised me and I didn’t understand why I was going to church. The Pastor didn’t talk about Jesus, so I stopped going. I guess I wanted to know why no one wanted me! let me bring you to the point I was headed for. The Pastor that married my husband and I came to my house and started to get fresh with me , So I told my husband we had to move and why. I also had a son named Dean, who had a bad heart. We took him to John Hopkins Hospital, they couldn’t help him. Our doctor admitted him into Colombia Presbyterian Hospital but he died on the operation table.

    See all this happen before I knew Jesus. But Jesus knew me and He put me on the path He wanted me on, to get me where He wanted me. I Praise Him every day for bring me through! So all that I had endured before I knew Him, He carried me to where He wanted me.

      When He woke me up to Him, I said Yes Lord I accept you as my Savor , I fell totally in love with Jesus.

  When I gave my life to Jesus, He started talking to me. I was in awe. I wasn’t use to having this type of Father to talk to. And to think, my heavenly Father wanted to talk to me was over whelming. It was a shock of little old me!

 Nevertheless, we talk every morning. I have coffee and read my bible. He would teach me things I did not know or understand. I would ask Him, why are you telling me this?

  Now, I’m going to tell you what He said to me (and I have not told this to any one, so here it go) No one is listening to me! I asked Him, what are you saying to me ? This is what I ‘m saying(said the Lord) there’s very few that want to hear what I want to say. Many Pastors I did not call , That’s why I have a small number that will listen. You have a heart after me, you searched for me as a child, wanting to know me.

     I have to say, that I listen to Him because I love to be in His Presence! Every day I could not wait to be with my Daddy! So what did I do? I went to my Pastor to tell him what my Daddy was talking about! I was so happy to share this with the man of God! He would say, you got it, the thing‘s my word speaks of in Acts. I did not want the Pastors JOB or His calling. God was talking to me and I was happy. I did not want his job, I wanted My Daddy to just to talk to me. I just wanted to share it with the Head of the flock and I was getting it!

    When the Lord was talking to me, I didn’t put two & two together. Here I am today, in 2012, back in 1983, when I was fist filled with the Holy Spirit, He choose to talk to me, because I love Him so much. Today He was telling me these things because it hurts His heart, the things that many so-called Pastors do to His people! I pray for the Pastors that did not know what they did, by not listening to you Lord . I am asking you to please forgive them, in Jesus name. Thank You  Lord! I also ask that you forgive me for not listening to you! I ask that you restore what we had back then, even greater than before because I have wonderful Pastors to help me Grow in this gift!

  The devil really tried to take me down, but Jesus was with me and yes, I had counseling from the mental health they helped me not to give up because I wanted to kill myself. I know it was Jesus that healed me and got me through it all, as the Song says it’s Him that got me through it all. He will get you through it all too! If you just call out to Him and say in the name of Jesus, HELP ME!!

      I want to encourage you today because my life’s Journey  brought me to Christ. I would not trade it for anything because He has been with me all the way !